UPPON A STARS…

“Do you believe there is gosh in this world, honey?”
“Absolutely”
“oh.. common… I don’t believe well educated western like you believe in gosh?” I laugh hardly.
“do you believe in god my love?”
“Absolutely… “
“so.. why do you believe in god but not believe in gosh”
“its different..”
“its same.. What kind of deferent?”

hmm… I’m speechless.. he is right…

“hey… close to me… look at the stars… its so beautiful “ he replayed while hold my hand.
“yup.. that all Indonesian stars..”
“why… because I’m in Indonesia now.. so you say like that?”
“ hahaha.. yup… anything that you see from my country is Indonesian property”
“ok… that is your star… that is your moon….. and tomorrow will shine your sun, you have many stars here… may I ask one.. I will keep it and bring back to my home”
“my pleasure… just chose one.. and keep it for me..” I smile…


We sit on the sand in front of dark beach, sky is so clear so many stars accompany us. I look at him.. he look so cute tonight, I don’t wanna one else to make me feel happy… no one… only him… its maybe I’m woman in love… I fell so comfortable… peace.. my heart beat regulated nicely like when I sleep… like in dreaming… I’m never in love crazy before…

Tonight is my last nigh here; I’m so confuse to make this decision… I love him god.. but I have make the best decision for us…

“Honey.. I have leaved you… I’m so sorry”
“But why?”
“I think our relationship will not work”
“u don’t love me”
“I love you…. You know it”
“so.. Prove it if you love me.. don’t leave me… stay here with me”
“I can’t.. if I’m here with you… and next week you will leave me forever… back to your country”
“so.. . come with me… stay in my country as my wife”
“it’s not a simple like that… I have family here… you stay here”
“I can not… my carrier there”
“if you work in Malaysia, Singapore or Australia… I’m with you, Europe is so far away from here…. 6 hours different”
“so… we are not couple anymore? I’m not your kent.. and you are not my Barbie… Barbie leave Kent… and Barbie will not marry with kent… you had broke my dream”
“I’m so sorry… realy…”

I’m so sad hear that… we often story about Barbie & Kent, we ever wish that our wedding in this beach like Barbie & Kent & we hope can invite our close friend only.

“Honey… are you happy with me? If I’m here make you sad…. I will home”
“no… its okay…. “
“may I know what is your wish upon the star last night?”
“hmm… something about you… and you?”
“I wish that we will together forever”

I’m quit… why I don’t have a brave to ask like that? If I have a chance anymore… I will ask like that.

My Kent… I will tell you my wish in our last night..

“God… I’m in love with him”





Dedicated to Mitja...

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